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KMID : 1148220210170010101
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Journal of Arts Psychotherapy
2021 Volume.17 No. 1 p.101 ~ p.130
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An Autobiographical Narrative Inquiry into the Maternal Identity of an Art Therapist
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Lee Sang-Hee
Kim Gab-Sook
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Abstract
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The purpose of this study was to understand the researcher's maternal identity through experience and find out its meanings by looking back on her life. The research is viewed as a narrative method that can truly reveal the story of life experienced by the researcher. My research process was conducted with self-analysis and group art therapy, and carried out under supervision. In addition, various ways of expression, such as painting work and autobiographical journal writing, were also employed in parallel. I engaged in creating artwork with my two children for a year to restore the mother-child relationship with them, and I also created artwork with my mother. The journey of inquiry was reconstructed into six plots and I discovered five meanings of the inquiry of maternal identity through these subjects. First, the process of getting to understand me through relationships with people. Second, my inner child led me to become another mother of others to satisfy the desire for recognition. Third, every time I was struggling with a trouble and felt exhausted, paintings served as a comfort like the mother's warm embrace, accommodating my feelings and desires and comforting me. Fourth, my strong maternal desire to be a good mother made me try to be a perfect mother. I realized that the way for me to be a good mother is to be myself. The autobiographical inquiry was a process of establishing my maternal identity by integrating my past, present and future life as the mother of two children and an art therapist. And it provided a perspective that allowed me to look at the others who are related to me From a new viewpoint by understanding myself, enabling me to change myself and my life.
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KEYWORD
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Art Therapist, Maternal Identity, Self-understanding, Autobiographical Narrative Inquiry
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